Test of time

Suddenly i missed my hometown so much, i was just talking to herbie, and juan both from sitiawan. Herbie is a pastor now, and juan is my friend. As i talk to them i suddenly thought of going back to sitiawan.
I miss everyone back home, especially home, my mom,dad,sis and bro. KL is not really a pleasant place to live, even after 4 months here, i still feel like an alien. Times, i've been wondering, have i make the right choice to come to selangor and study, because my heart is always in sitiawan. I realise that i'm so much more vulnerable here in KL, than in sitiawan. I told some of this to herbie. His reply was "God is never surprise"-His currciulum for development is "suffering". The harder it is for you, the more you are in his process of development,If God wants to build you, he will put in the most difficult of places-the test is not whether you fail him or broke his heart... the test is what do you do after that...you need to figure out how you can be part of God's story... NOT how God can be part of your story
I realise that what he says was true, especially the last sentence, that i would make myself a part of God's story and not the other way round. Lot of times i have make myself the centre of my life instead of God being the centre, i guess i really need to forget what sitiawan holds for now, and bring my heart from sitiawan to where i am now, because if you heart is not there where you are at, then you will not be able to accomplish anything.
I guess i should just surrender myself to God, and let Him help me. I