Breathe

BREATHE

This is the air I breathe This is the air I breathe Your holy presence Living in me This is my daily bread This is my daily bread Your very word Spoken to me And I, I'm desperate for you And I, I'm lost with out you This is the air I breathe This is the air I breathe Your holy presence Living in me And I, I'm desperate for you And I, I'm lost with out you Desperate for you Lost with out you I'm lost with out you I'm desperate for you And I, I'm desperate for you And I, I'm so lost with out you And I, I'm desperate for you And I, I'm lost with out you I'm lost with out you I'm lost with out you Jesus I'm lost with out you I'm desperate for you


-As i was reading a mail sent to me by shu yi, about crew of campus crusade for Christ in canada where she is now. How they have come together to want to reach out to the many people in a university, and the people around. How they are not afraid of radicule or criticize them because they wanna tell people about Jesus. Now when i read that mail, and i log onto their website, i was deeply moved. Sudden something hit my thoughts, it was like my conscience was awaken, i realise that how far i am from God!
- I guess sometimes i tend to think that i am better than others which i wouldn't deny that i did, and that since i'm a christian it makes me holier and better than the rest, but deep down inside i know it is wrong to think that way, because God says that all man are equal, He created them the same, in His eyes non is higher than the others. I guess pride got the hold of me that time, I ask of the Lord to forgive me.
-the fact of the matter is that, i've tried so hard to have a real and intimate relationship with God, but my hard tryings aren't giving God any space to touch my heart or change my life. All i did was wander, wandering why am i still on the same spot? Why am i still the same, and whenever God still small voice draws near, i push myself further away from him. I guess i was too caught up with the big things in life, worrying too much, stressing myself even more, that i totaly missed God's voice. I ask that the Lord would forgive me for not putting him in the centre of my life most of the days of my life.
-I've missed so many signs from the Lord, so many wonders that he so wants me to have, all those i pushed aside for what? Just to be over worried..gees!! Since now that i realise my pride, my I-don't-care attitude, my blindness. This would be a good time to start turning back to Him, to go back to the secret place of the Lord, the breathe the air that i so long for. Once again to be desperate for Jesus, making His word my daily bread. I want to live for Jesus.

-Lord, i come to you with a burden heart, a heart that longs to have that first love, to have that first touch of your love for me. How much you suffered for me on that Cross that day, just to take my sins away, willingly lay down your very own life for mine. How could i forget about you, how could i have doubted your might,and love? Forgive me Jesus, and i ask that Lord you break me this time, break the pride in me. Fill me with your love and your holy spirit. Thank you Jesus. Amen-